How I feel

I once felt alive
my soul spoke of things
that I could not explain
I loved the feeling of being alive
my eyes sparkling with delight
I used to speak with my eyes
now I feel something has died
is it me who has died?
am I compromising what I believe in?
have I lost hope in what I yearn?
or is this just me rebelling
did I grow up too fast?
where has the understanding,
I once had gone?
have I lost the ability to feel ?
or maybe I'm just numb
I have lost the ability to feel joy
maybe I just need time
to relight the spark...I once felt